The title of his book explicitly refers to fibromyalgia, an incurable disease from which Levy suffers and which causes outbreaks of intense pain, sometimes so acute that hospitalization is required. For the former deputy secretary of Studies and Programs of the PP, the condition led to an extreme dependence on benzodiazepines. Levy used the drug daily to combat the pain. However, it led him into a self-destructive loop that also included his then ex-partner, the singer-songwriter and left-wing activist. Nacho Vegas.
He reflected on this and delved into it in his book, where he recalls that while his dependence on antidepressants grew, the singer-songwriter maintained a drug habit. The attorney reveals how she broke out of that spiral and made a clean break with everything she thought was wrong. “I realized that I couldn’t have any more and that the only way to see what was happening to me was to rid myself of everything around me, of the pressures and things, of everything I was taking and everything that I was doing wrong,” Levy recalls, pointing out that he had to rid himself of “how i lived badly”. “It was the beginning of a new phase”, emphasizes Fiona Ferrer,
A process that, according to the president of the Retiro district, was undergone in silence and on a more personal level. Levy chose not to make his situation public, not even to his “friend”, the mayor of Madrid, José Luis Martínez-Almeida. “Nobody knew at that time that I was, because I wanted to live free from it. “I had to heal and it took me years to get myself together,” says the former leader of the Popular Party, who also confesses that at one point she was on the verge of relapsing into both her addiction and her relationship with Vegas. “I waited for someone to come looking for me, but in the end they didn't come looking for me to perform emotional blackmail.and that day I thought if I went to that place I would start all over again. I was sure. Then I turned off my phone and left, because if I didn't, I would come back. “I was in it,” he says, in an apparent reference to his ex-partner.
toxic relationship
On the podcast, he reflected on the relationship he had with Nacho Vegas last April The bad reputationwhere he explained that “In addition to everything that happened to me professionally, there was the addition of caring for someone else who needs me.”. Levy denied that the singer-songwriter's drug addiction was a “wear and tear” that “made everything much harder”. “I couldn't miss a single day so Nacho would get better. People told me how good he was with me, but there came a time when… To save him, I had to save myself“he explained.
Therefore, when he fell into a spiral of addiction, he gathered all the necessary strength to separate himself from the activist 'for the good of both' and to heal. “One day I said to him: 'I have to get out of here or we'll both fall'. Now we have a great relationship and we talk almost every day because I'm doing well. There is a love that can become a much deeper love after a relationship,” he added.
However, he admits that the relationship with Vegas was “toxic”. “Love was toxic at that time. I loved him unconditionally and he hurt me. He hurt himself and he hurt me. Now it's much healthier“, explains the president of the Retiro district city council, who has rediscovered love with Emilio Froján, a Gagllego businessman dedicated to the world of motorcycles.
